simple but humanistic, blue but playful, it's just so calming to watch. "well, if i'm alone, i'm alone. i sob my heart out and i laugh. it's okay as it is."
bits that captured Emily Dickinson's essence perfectly:
"i am somewhat troubled, to be sure, but my feelings are all indefinite."
"if i can't have equality, then i want nothing of love."
"poems are my solace for the eternity which surrounds us all."
"what of hell? avoid it if i can, endure it if i must."
"it's easy to be stoic when no one wants what you have to offer."
"beauty is in the eye of the beholder? that is no longer true, for that truism has become a cliché."
You're life itself. But I can't touch you. It's horrible. You're here in front of me, but there's no way.
i once had almost the exact same thoughts while talking to a person full of brightness and the café scene happens to me weekly. the dialogues, Satie's music, the raw visualizations of individual detachment and isolation were slowly merging together until it all felt too personal for me to bear. i could see it was also very personal for Malle. he didn't commit suicide, he made a film instead. it's a work born out of desperation and that's what makes it so authentic.
Delphine's isolation/loneliness has grown out of her self-esteem issues, her inability to connect with others and express herself so it felt a bit shallow to portray romantic love as her only and ultimate solution. i think it captured perfectly how layered aloneness is so i really didn't understand this obsession with finding a man. but i loved how sweet, fragile and soft-spoken she was and how she managed to articulate some of the things i've been waiting to meet with in a film. i especially liked the way it handled her constant need to burst out crying, even during a normal conversation.