may write more fully-formed thoughts later but this is like, one of the most esther-core movies i've ever seen. that feel when you're not seeing the same changes as the transition timelines you saw and envied for so long...........so you gotta pretend like you are, and pretend like you knew you were pretending, and pretend like it doesn't suck the air out of your lungs. and you feel like it makes you a bad person that you want so badly what you'll never get. what a picture. what a picture!!!!