When my father would take me out to the movies, he'd whisper in my ear before we sat down.
"Don't you embarrass me. Don't you fucking embarrass me."
When we went to go see Stuart Little 2, there was a couple in the back of the theater. Any time Stuart came on screen, the girl started crying. The boy offered no solace.
"Don't you piss in those Goddamn pants," my father whispered. "your mother died in those fucking pants."
Sometimes, I'd get out of my harness long enough to get to the bathroom in time, and other times I wouldn't. I'd see his nose twitch when the hot piss started running down my leg. The black plague terrorized Europe for…