holy shit my heart is racing so fast i feel like i’m going to combust and then reassemble again
gustav elijah åhr was truly a soul like no other. i wish i could put to words what this doc made me feel. i feel the pain he felt by saying no to others and watching them suffer. i feel how he didn’t regard his life much because why would he? things just stayed bad, even when he tried to make them good.
i’ll come back to this someday and try to describe how gus has affected me. i miss him everyday.