Jeanne Dielman, 23, Quai du Commerce 1080 Bruxelles

Jeanne Dielman, 23, Quai du Commerce 1080 Bruxelles ★★★½

This film is incredibly long, quiet, and still - but somehow in an anxious way. You’re stuck inside the main character’s loop of routine, but the horror of it isn’t found in the mundanity of it all. It’s in these long drawn out spaces of emptiness. 

I zoned out in nearly every scene thinking about my mom. She got pregnant (with twins) at 21 and sacrificed her youth to raise my siblings and I while my dad worked 6 days a week. When I was little we would call her crazy all the time for doing odd things, breaking down in the middle of the day, and really just having depressive episodes. It’s now as an adult that I realize we were completely blind to her daily struggle.