Hating yourself is obviously exhausting. Sue me!
I return to Anne Charlotte Robertson's Five Year Diary in moments of crisis (often!). I've wanted to write something like this for a long time but you have to find a place this is both anonymous and personal. The word I kept thinking of today was demoralizing. To see a victim of abuse have to pay her abuser millions of dollars for the crime of speaking out. I was using the word demoralizing.…
cw for suicide, sexual assault, anxiety, depression and me
I forgot and can't tell how much I dread this season. The person I am fucking told me yesterday he would give me a kind of Christmas gift; being able to spend time with him on the 26th.
When I think about myself in a future it's never pleasant. I don't imagine myself hosting Christmas parties with my lover but maybe becoming a statistic about winter suicide rates. I like you…
dec. 2020
being isolated for a long time makes you forget your manners. i met someone and she is wonderful. we shared a paris thanksgiving and decided to make it more. the first activity of any new couple is of course the trading of art. we spent a couple days going through her favorite, serial experiments lain.
anime is a blindspot and admittedly not my cup of tea but it was beautiful if not completing gut wrenching. but then it…
