I needed a couple of days to sit on this movie because while there's a lot that I loved, it never quite came together for me in the end. What's probably Ferrara's most personal film to date is masturbatory but never insincere, and you gotta admire the guy for bearing it all even if it comes across as incredibly pathetic (which I know was the point, but anyhow). I find myself saying this every time I see Dafoe in something new, but this might be the best he's ever been? What a fucking actor.

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Me: So the films I watched for last year’s 52 Films By Women challenge really paled in comparison to what I saw the year prior. I think in 2021, I’m going to prioritize blind spots, take advantage of my new Criterion Channel subscription and make this the best edition of that challenge yet.

Also me: boxd.it/aTMfu

Unintentionally(?) better Christian propaganda than any garbage from Pure Flix. Can think of several instances that deeply moved me. Was Daniel actually hot, or am I just attracted to men who look like they never sleep? Much to think about!

2020 Ranked